Ugh...
ShittyAnyway, I had something written here, but I think I'll just save it for a deviation because it's pretty long, and I'm tired and want to shower.
Life is sucky. My classes feel unreal, and I haven't been feeling much like myself either. Not sick, just strange. Sometimes I think I'm going to die, because random childhood memories keep coming back to me, things like my grandfather's old house, my old toys, summertime, elementary school; almost as if my mind is trying to remember everything that's happened in my life so far in order to help me find out who I am now. I'm not so sure whether that last bit is true, but hey, it sounds poetical.
I hate thinking about post-secondary. My marks this semester are sucky, like in the 6_ range, and I'm afraid no institute will want to take me next year because they're so low. It doesn't help when I don't know what I'm going to do next year either. I wish that nobody else knew either. Then maybe I wouldn't feel so alone and immature. I plan to stay a year, but that makes me feel pitiful, like I'll be the one still living with my parents at age 30 while everyone else has great jobs and is living in an apartment somewhere.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only person in the world who gets impregnated (is that the right word?) with these heavy emotions. If anyone else does, they sure do well not to show it.
Christmas is coming soon, yes. I could use a break. I could use some time to get into the Christmas mood. Right now that's hard to come by.
Sometimes I wish I could be a kid again. It would be nice.
Sorry, I don't know what else to say.
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HeLP My CaPS LOcK KeY IS BrOKEn!
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"Why are you so cheerful?"
"Because, the birds are chirping, and the sun is shining."
"It's storming outside,"
"oh... Well, the thunder is booming, and the sky is gray!"
"I'll be a radiator just like you, and you, and YOUR MOM"
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I'm a TEENAGER, so I MUST have a STEREOTYPE.
Repo! The Genetic Opera [link]
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