Writing this entry on my iPad for a change ooh.
Not many intelligent things to say about my life so far. I have trouble sleeping it seems...as of now I've been up since 2 am because of this weird itching sensation in my throat/nasal congestion and now I'm extremely hungry but don't want to leave my nice warm bed and make some cereal.
This week I am watching am watching an opera for a class and writing an essay. The week after that I have 2 midterms, including one for chemistry (I know what you're thinkng, chemistry?). Two weeks after I have another midterm and a concert review to write.
I feel mostly apathetic about life. I look at the first years in my dining hall and feel like a veteran and wish I could be 2 years younger again. Most days I eat alone because none of my friends live on campus anymore. I look at people I pass by on my way to classes and become slightly philosophical, knowing I will never see them again. My hair looks stupid and pear-shape during the week. I blame the showers here so I just settle for tying it up all the time - which then exposes all the acne on my cheeks.
I wish I could practice more during the week, but as it is the music room gets booked up pretty quickly and I don't like practicing in my room because I feel like everyone walking by will be judging me and think I suck. Sometimes I regret dropping out of Symphonic Winds. I should really get my flute serviced because the footjoint keeps loosening but there's no time.
I'm depressed that my brother has gotten a summer job at Wonderland as a lifeguard and in the meantime I have almost no future. Most of my self-esteem these days either comes from fanfiction or tumblr.
I hate my writing and think it looks like a bad joke. I feel like I'm losing my talent in everything.
Paperman rocks. I am knitting a loofah scarf, and might put some pictures up here of it when I'm done. There's a trailer for a new Studio Ghibli movie on the Internet which looks exciting.
I will mostly likely regret posting this nonsense when I wake up later. Oh well.