Yolo

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It's been a while since I've updated. Well two months to be exact. As most of you are aware I am off school, so I am spending my weeks partially looking for work, partially learning to drive, partially walking my dog and partially taking summer school downtown.

I think it's safe to say that I almost hate driving as much as I hate math now. There's too many damn rules, too many mistakes I keep making and I feel like I can't really vent about it much because most people my age know how to drive already, which makes me feel more upset rather than encouraged. Not to mention when I'm failing at one thing, I immediately think of all the other things I fail at, ultimately causing me to spiral into a mid-adolescent crisis where I start believing I'll never get married, never have children and never get a job so why am I still here. I hate that feeling. It sucks. Eventually I just need to accept that everybody has gone through the same things I have, but that's the issue 'gone' is a past participle, not a present. And when other people your age have already done the same things you have, I think there's a greater pressure to be as good as them, so you end up being more hard on yourself. No one can understand that, except for me. Which makes me feel more like a misfit.

I am so dramatic.   

When I'm alone, like at home or on the bus, I spend a lot of my time trying to decode myself. I think about life, I think about the things I'm learning about in class versus the things I was brought up to believe, and what is and what isn't true in each. I get disgusted by the degree of propaganda stuff I see people posting on facebook now so I don't like to go on it anymore. I often think about what makes an artist, whether it's about being perceptive, or overdramatic or perhaps a bit of both? I get frustrated with my writing and don't like reading my old fanfics anymore. I feel like I want to write an original story, but I don't know what.   

I think I've already deduced that I want to live in the city when I have money. Just so I won't have to worry so much about managing a car. I ride public transit more than any of my friends do now, so none of that should be an issue. You can learn more about a city from taking transit than driving a car so I almost consider it to be better option for me.

Brave is coming out this month. I'm excited. Almost as excited as I was when Tangled was out two years ago.  

I changed my tumblr layout. I am so in love with it, I keep on opening the page just to look at it. I am a weird person. www.bravelostmouse.tumblr.com

This month I'm working on two fanfics. And possibly taking alto saxophone lessons?

My writing well just dried up. AS YOU were! :D
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Agrifex's avatar
You have you some fun, looks like you need it.

I'm no fan of driving either. I don't like it. All those little rules, I struggle with them too. Goddamn.
But you'll get there. You'll be a better driver in spite of it. And when you go to the city you'll never need to drive again if you don't want to. So take that, stupid cars.

I totally understand the bad at things thing. Again, I get it too. It's not fun when you are so under pressure that whenever you do mess up it becomes a reflection of how terrible you are at things.
I'd give advice on that if i had any that was good.

Nobody's really 'happy,' but we all do our best. All we can do is do what we love, and have a job so we can continue doing what we love, what we enjoy the most.

The difference between an artist and a non-artist is a word.

All you can do is be happy, y'know? It's hard to do, so find a way to do it and stick with it, and things will go uphill.

God, I don't like typing advice, it sounds too fake online.